Written in the Stars

I have always had an interest in astrology; not in reading generic horoscopes in papers or magazines, but in the scientific aspect of mapping the planets and stars in the sky at the exact time we are born into this life. I love the idea that the position of the planets might have an influence on shaping our personality and our life path – our personal star map to help guide us through our life journey, while allowing our own free will and self-awareness to help us make choices along the way.

A couple of years ago, I saw that one of my favourite mixed-media artists, Suzi Blu, and her friend Courtney were offering astrological birth chart readings. I had always been aware that my personality was vastly different to that typical of my star sign and, curious to learn more about it, I signed up for a reading. I provided my exact time, date, and place of birth, and a couple of weeks later I received a PDF chart and a recorded in-depth explanation of the signs and personal interpretation of how it all related to my life. So much of it made perfect sense. Without knowing me, they were able to pinpoint my personality exactly and I was able to make sense of that which had always puzzled me. They also validated that I was on the right path with what I had chosen to do with my life, but suggested that my soul’s purpose was to delve deeper into my emotions, talk about uncomfortable things, and to write deeply things that are meaningful to me.

I am very fortunate to have had a good life with wonderful family and friends, a happy upbringing, and a happy marriage. The one thing I have struggled with over the years is social anxiety, which at times has led to crippling panic attacks, and in the past made school and work situations unhappy places to be.

After the reading I thought about what Suzi and Courtney had said and, soon after, I began writing ‘The Air that I Breathe.’ Although written as a fictional novel, this was a story with which I had a deep personal connection and could write from a heartfelt place of experience and emotion, a story that touched on my own personal experiences with social anxiety and panic attacks. But rather than dwell on the negative aspects, I wanted it to be a story of how we can create our own life path by choosing to live an authentic life and build a life around the things that allow us to feel happy and fulfilled. We shouldn’t be defined by our fears, our weaknesses and imperfections, but rather we should choose to shine a light on all that is good in our lives, on our strengths, our talents and capabilities, and on all that we have to offer others.

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Social anxiety is only a small part of my life now. I have created a life around the things and the people who make me happy, a life that is full and rewarding. I haven’t had a panic attack in a long time. I know the triggers, I do my best to avoid those situations, and knowing I can choose to avoid them makes all the difference in the world to my personal wellbeing.

If it were not for that birth chart reading, ‘The Air that I Breathe’ would probably never have been written. I guess you could say that its creation was ‘written in the stars.’

This art journal page depicts my star sign, Aries. I had a lot of fun painting it, with bursts of colour denoting moments of creation in the universe. Actually, they were blobs of paint that I peeled from my pallete paper the next day and stuck to the page. I thought they added a unique element to the painting.

9 thoughts on “Written in the Stars

  1. Wow, what stunning art pages! I love how you used the dried blobs of paint from your palette – amazing 😀. My star sign is Aries and my favourite colour is blue so for me your pages are perfection …lol 😉. Your chart readings sound fascinating and so enlightening too, I’m glad that it inspired your latest book drawing upon your experiences. Your book is a wonderful read and I can relate to your main character, Zoe, it’s such an inspirational story! Sending you happy and creative wishes! J 😊 x

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    • Thank you so much, Jo! I was delighted to find a way to use the leftover dried paint instead of wasting it. It looks more effective on the page, though, than it does in the photo. I’m so happy that you think my book is a wonderful read! Sending happy and creative wishes back to you!

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  2. Thanks for sharing the background to your book, Kristah! Have you heard of Cait of Paper Fury? She also struggles with social anxiety and writes a blog about writing. Her first book just came out a few months ago.

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  3. What a wonderful story of how you came to write the book, Kristah. And it probably had a lot to do with your ability to take control of your situation re anxiety. Great way to go!
    I haven’t bought the book yet, as we are a bit short of disposable $$, but will do once I can. 🙂

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